i feel rather inspired now to start training for triathalon... must stop procrastinating! just tt i cant bring boy boy to nus with me.... so sad leh i think ill miss him when i stay hall. hmm and ill miss being able to just walk out and have a roadful of cafes!!! sighz. i love siglap lah. staying in the west will be wierd!!! nv stayed in the west before mannn. sighz.

anyway i will make a scedule to train haha. and mr esmond loon you better not laugh at my efforts ok! horrible man!!!!

ok anyway i was thinking. its REALLY hard for us to think of God all the time! i wanted to try it and well its really hard. after a while will forget one. and God will not be in my thoughts for very long before somethign comes and distracts me. i always have to remind myself to look towards the long term vision rather than the thing tt is right in front of me. still remeber what edmund chan was saying about how isaiah had a vision tt set his path so that he knew where to go and styuff and the exact details were secondary cos of this great vision that he had. and i guess my great vision has not come yet cos i seem so focused on the immediate and i have to force myself to look to the long term goal of the glory of God on the earth. dunno lah. just seems like im moving around in circles sometimes. hmm. hopefully in uni i will be able to be more focussed when i go back to sch and stuff. hope so! and i hope tt vcf will help me too hehs. sighz. need more purpose in my life!

hmm i think ill join jazz band in uni haha. oops. hope i dun mahluate myself too badly! i think i will... but at least i will be forced to play and practise if i join! yah. and i guess will have pple to learn with so will be better :)

hmm. my new laptop is fun! i need a name tho. so any suggestions? :)